Hi thank you all so much for your responses.....how thankful I am that I can share these things and get feedback, I am truly quite confused. I have asked him why he is so ridgid, and why there are so many rules in our marriage After many, many screaming and swearing responses I believe I am FINALLY beginning to understand just a bit.........my husbands' life revolves around his pleasure and his pleasure alone, mainly his toys and projects, it took me a very long time to realize that I am not really one of his pleasures, or maybe I was but that ended for him. Now when I approach him to talk, to connect emotionally, it takes away from him pleasuring himself, he does not want to even think about anything that I may need from him, even the term NEED makes him very angry. I have asked him if there is another woman or if he desires another.....he is adamant that there is not, he shakes his head and says "yeah that's all I want another woman and all the hassles that go with that, no way!" What I have the most trouble with, and may seem very stupid to those reading this, is that I hear the words but it is so hard for me to absorb all of it, it is so foreign to me to treat someone, anyone like that, and especially not your spouse, why in the world would someone want to do that? I receive the absolute greatest joy in my life by bringing happiness and comfort to others, I cannot get on the same page as my husband about this, maybe someone else who feels as he does could expand on this? Thank you all so much, I am glad this site is here.
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