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I have been going to counseling weekly. I've tried numerous times to do things with her and the kids. She always has an excuse as to why she can't attend. I see my kids every other weekend now that I moved out. I make the best of those times but saying goodbye and watching them cry and beg me to come home kills me. She repeatedly has told me that her and the kids lives are better now. All of the issues in our marriage were my doing according to her. She has noticed the changes I have made but her comment is too little to late. She regrets having kids with me and everything we have done in the past 11 years. I have no one to talk to. I gave up everything in my life to start a family with her. All I have now is an empty rental house that I struggle to pay for every month. Doesn't it take 2 people to make a marriage work? Her latest statement is that I am to blame for her EA because I gave the got her # to do the work on our new house. I am completly at a loss with it all.