 Re: I was the unfaithful one
I've taken full responsibility ... it's just hard to realize you've gone from a good person to a total ****. We were together 4 months before we married. I know it was quick but it felt right... everything was wonderful but he got scared and backed away. The fight that made him leave was me asking about getting our marriage license sent in so we could have my last name officially changed. He didnt want it yet.
He found out about the other men yesterday. Like I said we were seperated and free to do as we wished. I made my bed, I did what I could to ensure he was safe as in std wise and I wasn't ready to tell him. I was ashamed of what I had done, saddened by what the end result would be and just scared.
I'm in his home for another week and there are glimmers that he still loves me and wants something and I'm trying my hardest to prove my love, my apology, my everything.
He walked out on me in january ... I came home to an empty home. I've coped, I've held on and he has pushed me aside. He told me he was talking to people on dating websites. I just wanted to feel loved again and sadly I did it like all insecure, weak little girls do it. I can't turn back time ... but i want to make it right. I know we both made our mistakes and I did the worst part of it.
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