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flashDveloper · 12-11-2011, 08:07 PM

I understand the selfish feeling...and if any, guilt. I feel that very deeply...wishing that we both (my husband) would have dated longer and lived together before getting married. It was only a year and a half later into our marriage that I started having doubts and, often times, wish, that I was single again, on my own...not married. Both of us so different in our own ways, our backgrounds in how we grew up, the way we do things, and arguing often, finding it hard to compromise on things...

I am hoping that the mc will help me through this difficult time. At times, I am scared about what the future holds right now, and am so used to being around him, our habits, that its hard to find the courage to move forward...questioning myself about what I'm doing...but I know its right, even though a chunk of me wants to run back. But if I do that, I know that feeling will remain, and come back stronger. I've been feeling this way for 2.5 yrs, and 1 year of counseling did not squashing that feeling...or fix my attraction issues.

I feel horrible for keeping this secret for so long from him, that was selfish in itself...and not fully open until now. Yes, a great weight has been lifted, and I look at him differently now since. I know I still love him, but its different.

12-11-2011, 08:07 PM	#9 (permalink)
flashDveloper Registered User Join Date: Dec 2011 Posts: 13	Re: Perpetuating the lie..... I understand the selfish feeling...and if any, guilt. I feel that very deeply...wishing that we both (my husband) would have dated longer and lived together before getting married. It was only a year and a half later into our marriage that I started having doubts and, often times, wish, that I was single again, on my own...not married. Both of us so different in our own ways, our backgrounds in how we grew up, the way we do things, and arguing often, finding it hard to compromise on things... I am hoping that the mc will help me through this difficult time. At times, I am scared about what the future holds right now, and am so used to being around him, our habits, that its hard to find the courage to move forward...questioning myself about what I'm doing...but I know its right, even though a chunk of me wants to run back. But if I do that, I know that feeling will remain, and come back stronger. I've been feeling this way for 2.5 yrs, and 1 year of counseling did not squashing that feeling...or fix my attraction issues. I feel horrible for keeping this secret for so long from him, that was selfish in itself...and not fully open until now. Yes, a great weight has been lifted, and I look at him differently now since. I know I still love him, but its different.