Originally Posted by Pit-of-my-stomach
Just wait until all of the crap you have compartmentalized comes floating up to the surface and you dont have the benefit of pushing it down/away with the single minded urgency to 'save/fix'.
When all of those tiny little splinters in your heart from the trickle truths, lies, and deciet start getting infected and that strange rose colored light you've been seeing her in starts to fade...
Now imagine some beautiful, interesting girl smilies a genuine smile at you...
That's when the test starts.
It is the ongoing lies that finish it. It eats at any love you have left. Then one day you just look up and see them for what they have become to you. You see the contempt.