seeyouinmagic

All good comments and insights everybody thank you.

@Uptown, your post was a real eye opener. I've done reading into BPD and Bipolar before, but there is usually a lot of jargon I have a hard time wrapping my brain around. I hope my S/O doesn't have BPD, but there have been red flags indicating that she does. We'll see what happens I guess. The biggest red flag is that she has latched on to the first real bad drama in our relationship revolving around a lie I told her about my past, which she found out the truth from an anonymous source and later confronted me about it. I have tried again and again to reconcile with her about and things get better after a day or two. Even if its declared dead and buried, in her mind it's still fair game get brought up from time to time.

@Maggot, my way of dealing with people I've mentioned is to not deal with them for the most part if I don't have to. I used the phrase, "narcissistic, elitist and backstabbing/two-faced jerks" because that's the description I can come up with about what kind of people they are from personal observation and interacting with them. I'm a conflict avoider and usually can't see any good come out of getting into fights with people, though I'm confident there was at one point things being said about my fiance and I behind our backs, coming from people, while acquaintances were considered friendly. I'm not sure what other "internal issues" I would have regarding that other than I've mad poor choices of who I associate with in the past. The catch 22 is that many of these people apparently respect me due to my past contributions to the local music scene. I don't have any overt issues with them beyond how they treat themselves and others, nor do I try to cause problems, I simply choose to not associate with those personality types anymore, if I can help it. Make sense?