| | Re: please dont judge me
You see many instances play out on these boards that are just like yours. The more you push to be with her at this point the more she will push you away. This has nothing to do with her thinking you don't love her or won't pursue her or fight for your marriage, she already knows this by now and it isn't working. I promise you that if you continue down the road you are on, you have 0 chance of her comming back too you.
Stop chasing, if you have any chance at all it will be by working on yourself. Get a hobbie, start working out, going out with friends, make yourself seem not so desperate (there is not a woman alive that is attracted to desperation). You need to come to the realization that she is most likely not comming back and you need to let her see that you will be ok with this. I know this sucks but it is the only chance you have, you will never be able to guilt your way back into a life with her.
"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new."ALBERT EINSTEIN