reddevilmary

Tragic, Thanks for your reply. I do not believe it was abuse or force, I believe it was my interpretation or perception of what I should do...even if he did get angry or whine, I should have had more of a backbone and stood my ground. I think I acted out of fear...fear that he would cheat if I didn't 'do' certain things, and what is really unfair about that is that he has great character and morals, and I didn't trust him. That's sad and wrong. He didn't abuse me....the only time he really lacked judgement was when I left that room, but then so did I lack judgement....I was just too *fearful* of raining on everyone else's parade... Again, my perception of things was skewed....I should NOT have been so fearful about pleasing others. It was a good lesson to learn, and frankly I think that's why we've been arguing so much, because I'm going in the other direction now about standing my ground. Now I stand my ground on every itty bitty subject! LOL....I think I just need to learn some balance and listen very attentively to myself, and not project what I *think* will happen and trust just a little more.