fandj03

Hello everyone. I'm new to the site, but I really need advice. I've decided to have "the talk" with my husband on Friday. About 3 years ago, I came home unexpectedly while he was on a lunch break to find him doing well, undecent things while watching gay pornography on the computer. Of course, I was shocked. He finally confessed that it was his biggest secret. He said he doesn't want a male to sleep with him, but he wouldn't mind sleeping with a male. Okay, I'm trying to find a way to put all of this without being obscene. I decided to stick around, and he swore he'd never do it again. Then, about a year later, I found in the computer history that he'd been looking again. So, I confronted him and told him that I was thinking about leaving him. He, of course, said that he couldn't survive without me. I told him we'd take it slow so he would have time to get used to the idea. At this point, we already had a daughter. During our discussion, he said that he'd been thinking that he wanted to try having another child. Bout 2-3 weeks after our discussion, I would wake up for about a week or two with him on top of me. Next thing I know, I'm pregnant again. Well, this child is a year old now, and I still think that I want a divorce. I've made up my mind to talk to him again on Friday. I'm just terrified that I'll end up in the same position that I was in last time. I love him. He's been my best friend for 9 years, but that's as far as my feelings for him go. When I walked in on him that day, the spousal love that I felt for him died instantly. And it has NOT come back. It's had 3 years to come back, and it hasn't. Whether you have advice on a better approach to leaving him or whatever your advice may be, I will appreciate it.