fandj03

please help me. I'm absolutely terrified of the outcome of the discussion with my husband, scared for my two girls, and afraid of the backlash that may occur in the community.

Do you think that I'm doing the right thing? I don't think he's totally in love with me or totally straight. I have nothing against whatever his sexuality may be, but I don't feel like he's happy with me. I don't want him to touch me anymore, and for a long time(trying to not be too graphic), I did not like the "doggy" position b/c it hurt me too much to think that he wanted to be with another man. Now, I'll get in that position to get everything over with that much quicker b/c I don't want to be with him-period. I've even considered an affair with a friend of mine(who is very willing, that I know for sure), but I am from a religious background. My bro is a preacher. He's the only one that I've confided in, and he assured me that what my husband did was considered "sexual immorality", which the Bible says is the only reason to seek a divorce. So, I feel like I could morally seek a divorce and not worry about my soul. Of course, I'm not planning to tell everyone what the problem with our marriage was b/c he's the father of my children and I respect and love him enough to not want to ruin his good name.

My question is, do you think I'm doing the right thing and/or going about this the right way