| | Re: Warrant for my arrest- Assault and battery? WTF
She calls me, before work, at break, lunch, and on her way home. Thats her deal to keep me around. The GPS and transparentcy is there but in addition there is a submission on her part that was dangerously close in my part in abusing it, until she spoke up (thanks to IC for both of us).
So in like any sub/dom relationship there must be rewards. So I can dish it out but I most be able to give back. An effort on my part...not to reward her for her infidelity but to reward her for making an effort in doing this submission both emotionaly and sexualy.
How ever rough I am with her I equaly have to be soft. Sure I have my triggers and bad days but I regroup and make the effort to show her effection and an effort of great amount of attention.
So yes she takes the abuse of my anger, but understands that I was hurt in a big way, but in the same breath I do not want to be this pissed off guy anymore so I make this effort to be better.She can be this "i'm not worth, I'm a bad person" kind of thing, but she doesn't want to be that person either. Call it self awareness if you will. Frankly I don't want to be around this kind of person, so there you go, what she needs to do to keep me around.
God I hope this makes sense?
Bottom line she takes the out burst, she has this submission about her, but when I treat her good she also returns it 10 fold. So it all boils done to being nice to each other. But there is alway a but, thats just what she has created. It is her choice to except it and I make a choice not to abuse it.
Her biggest acomplishment beside the constant contact is her ablity to give up her friends and "privite" life, her willingness to spend all her time with me and no one else. There's really a sense that she has given her self to me completely.
My take is, don't walk behind me, don't walk in front of me, but walk next to me..........she wants a best friend and it is me.
The b!tch is that its hard to explian, it just a new behavior she has....a new life style if you will.