oceanbreeze

Thank you all for your response. I am definitely thinking about it.

I love him a lot and we grew up together, but we have different paths. He works full time while I attend school full time and work part time. Our goals to be together are the same, but the grey areas in the relationship scream at me.

I was really afraid to marry the guy because I felt it is too soon. As strange as it sounds I see me stuck in a spider web and he's the blood-sucking spider.

I've been telling him for days that I do not want to marry until my late mid-twenties. If not I will just let him go to find another wife since he seems so desperate and keen on having a wife now. I am not a person to be controlled and I wont let him, but if he wants his way then he'll just have to do it with someone else. I told him that yesterday and today. It didnt seem like he "heard" me all he did seem to hear were his own thoughts. But I didnt care, all I cared about was getting my message through.

I am young, I may not be a virgin anymore, but with great qualifications and a good personality I believe that I can get an ideal man out there.

Like I used to tell him. I am a woman on a train, either he hops on or off, either way I'm still going straight forward.