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twoblave · 03-14-2008, 06:54 PM

Just felt like venting a bit. Some days it feels like I'm strong others feel very sad and frightening. Today is one of the latter. Nothing in paticular happened. She never repsonded to my last email. Not that she really needed to. Sometimes the silence is so hard to deal with. I am really scared of losing her. Of course I'm not going mention any of this to her. Even if we do get back together, how are we going to deal with all this? It's not like I can pretend this didn't happen. Sometimes I feel like she will tell me about an affair she had or is having. I keep reading that people who separate almost always get a divorce. God, that's tough to deal with. I know there is nothing I can do about her feelings. I can only focus on what I do. It's not that I'm going to start crying, begging, or pleading but I just wish everything was the way it use to be. I want happiness. I want me to feel happiness with her by my side. I want her to be happy as well. This is such a frustrating time. There is so much hurt on both sides. I guess I'm feeling impatient and worried. I wish the suffering would end. This rollercoster ride from hell is really taking it's toll on me. One day I'm confident and hopefull the next I'm scared and confused. The nightmares continue. I keep losing sleep. She is just so slient. I need words of encourgement. Is there anything that can be done to help with the silence?

03-14-2008, 06:54 PM	#21 (permalink)
twoblave Registered User Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 12	Re: On the verge of losing her. Just felt like venting a bit. Some days it feels like I'm strong others feel very sad and frightening. Today is one of the latter. Nothing in paticular happened. She never repsonded to my last email. Not that she really needed to. Sometimes the silence is so hard to deal with. I am really scared of losing her. Of course I'm not going mention any of this to her. Even if we do get back together, how are we going to deal with all this? It's not like I can pretend this didn't happen. Sometimes I feel like she will tell me about an affair she had or is having. I keep reading that people who separate almost always get a divorce. God, that's tough to deal with. I know there is nothing I can do about her feelings. I can only focus on what I do. It's not that I'm going to start crying, begging, or pleading but I just wish everything was the way it use to be. I want happiness. I want me to feel happiness with her by my side. I want her to be happy as well. This is such a frustrating time. There is so much hurt on both sides. I guess I'm feeling impatient and worried. I wish the suffering would end. This rollercoster ride from hell is really taking it's toll on me. One day I'm confident and hopefull the next I'm scared and confused. The nightmares continue. I keep losing sleep. She is just so slient. I need words of encourgement. Is there anything that can be done to help with the silence?