Bandit

Not sure, I guess my idea of marriage is to accept it for what it is.. "the slow and unstoppable death of your soul"

Both of my grandparents were married for 40+ years, and neither one of my grandfathers ever looked happy.. Just like a poor, tormented, and beaten soul. The shell of a man that once was.
I guess for the most part that I just figured that's marriage, and now that I'm there I just gut it out; day to day..

Also my parents where divorced when I was 9, dad beat the hell out of mom etc.. and suppose that getting a divorce would be admitting defeat or failing. I think of it like in todays society with so many divorces, your just suppose to gut it out, buck the trend.. Marriages are hard, and take work, and are really not about being fun. It's about making it through regardless day in and day out.. so that 20 years from now I can be that beaten soul (just like grandpa)...