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KirstenHere · 03-16-2008, 11:38 AM

My story is long, so I won't bother with all the details. In short, my husband left me 3 days ago in the middle of the night, stole all my money, and is a heavy, and I do mean heavy, pot smoker. I recently got diagnosed with Lupus and life has been pretty hard for me. He was my best friend, and thought was my soul mate. This is not the first time he has left, but will be the last. I'm devasted, but hanging in there. Most of my problems now are financial, since he took over 700 bucks, which was all the money I had to my name. I have three kids that are not his, ages 17, 19, and 21, they all live at home. Having them here for sure helps me. Night times are the worse, though I'm sure you know. I find myself taking Ambien more than I should and that scares me. I also take vicidon for my pain which he also stole. That probabaly broke my heart more than anything. He knew the pain I go through, but took them anyhow.
I did talk to him about 1 in the morning the night he left. He told me he was so wasted and just needed to sleep. He also proceeded to tell me that he was miserable (with himself I'm sure) and neede to go west. The thing that does worry me is that he had called a cab and never caught it. A part of me is worried he is dead, but he has ran all his life and has great survivor skills. I do believe he has some kind of mental illness. Life was pretty good for us, besides my illness. We just had a new Grandbaby and that brought a lot of joy to our lives. He made good money, we just bought a house, a new car, there was nothing to really complain about besides the fact that I was always on him about getting high. He'd wake up in the morning and get high and stay high all day long. So yea, I did nag about that, which in return made me nag about other things considering he did nothing around the house. I'm scared of my future and have a fear of being alone. I DID make it to church this morning which was a true blessing. We both went to church for about 3 years and believed greatly in God. Our church fell apart last summer and our pastor, who was my husbands best friend, betrayed us very greatly. He lost all his faith, I still believed and hung on to some faith but rarely put God in my life.
Anyways, I'm rambling. I would LOVE to make some friends that know what I'm going through and can help me out on those days that seem worthless. Thanks for listening.

03-16-2008, 11:38 AM	#3 (permalink)
KirstenHere Registered User Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 1	Re: Life after "the one" My story is long, so I won't bother with all the details. In short, my husband left me 3 days ago in the middle of the night, stole all my money, and is a heavy, and I do mean heavy, pot smoker. I recently got diagnosed with Lupus and life has been pretty hard for me. He was my best friend, and thought was my soul mate. This is not the first time he has left, but will be the last. I'm devasted, but hanging in there. Most of my problems now are financial, since he took over 700 bucks, which was all the money I had to my name. I have three kids that are not his, ages 17, 19, and 21, they all live at home. Having them here for sure helps me. Night times are the worse, though I'm sure you know. I find myself taking Ambien more than I should and that scares me. I also take vicidon for my pain which he also stole. That probabaly broke my heart more than anything. He knew the pain I go through, but took them anyhow. I did talk to him about 1 in the morning the night he left. He told me he was so wasted and just needed to sleep. He also proceeded to tell me that he was miserable (with himself I'm sure) and neede to go west. The thing that does worry me is that he had called a cab and never caught it. A part of me is worried he is dead, but he has ran all his life and has great survivor skills. I do believe he has some kind of mental illness. Life was pretty good for us, besides my illness. We just had a new Grandbaby and that brought a lot of joy to our lives. He made good money, we just bought a house, a new car, there was nothing to really complain about besides the fact that I was always on him about getting high. He'd wake up in the morning and get high and stay high all day long. So yea, I did nag about that, which in return made me nag about other things considering he did nothing around the house. I'm scared of my future and have a fear of being alone. I DID make it to church this morning which was a true blessing. We both went to church for about 3 years and believed greatly in God. Our church fell apart last summer and our pastor, who was my husbands best friend, betrayed us very greatly. He lost all his faith, I still believed and hung on to some faith but rarely put God in my life. Anyways, I'm rambling. I would LOVE to make some friends that know what I'm going through and can help me out on those days that seem worthless. Thanks for listening.