twoblave

Interesting night. Gotta call from the wife. She's is in Nashville for work. We live in FL. She had txt me I luv u and miss u. I sent one back saying I luv u. She called me 5 mins later. She was crying. I answered in a positive voice. She asked what I was doing. Told her I was winding down for the night. Just got off work. She said I wanted you to know that I miss you and love you and that she thinks about us all the time. That she's not having an easy time with all this. She doesn't want to keep me hanging but she just isn't ready to make a choice yet. She said she doesn't want to get back together just because she's lonely. I told her I wouldn't have it any other way. I was loving but firm. I said if you come back that I need her to committ to fixing the realtionship. That it couldn't all be me doing the work and it wouId take some time. I said I'm interested in moving forward with or without her. I said if we divorce that I wouldn't hate her but need her out of my life completely to move forward. I spoke of not needing anyone but God to make me happy anymore. If she wanted to end it that she didn't need to worry. I would be fine. I told her I had my own dreams and desires. I want a family, I want to have passion, desire, and happiness in my relationship. I want a nice body, I want a successful career., Told her these need to happen regardless of the outcome to this situation. It acutally turned out to be a great talk. The best since this separation happend. We sound like we are on the same page with most of our feelings. We both agreed that we shouldn't rush into this if we decide to try to work this out. That was my thought. We should try a few dates and see how we feel. If we liked what we saw, we would then go to a marriage counselor to get everything out on the table so we could move forward. I felt that I had achieved some confidence and respect with her and myself, after I hung up. Her biggest fear is that we will end up in the same situation after 6 months and she will regret it. I told her to take time. I made a promise to God to stick this out and I would. She needed me to not be so dependant on her for everything. I agreed and told that her I had discovered I could always depend on God for my needs. No one else. I think she felt better after the talk. I know I did. Sorry this so winded but I have alot to say. I spoke to her about being so negative and how she needs to think more positive about things. I told her feeling sorry for herself wasn't doing her any favors and wasting her energy. Not just this situtation but everything in her life. I said this may be the best thing to happen to us regardless how this turns out. Said we may be happy with someone else or look back at this when we are 90yrs old and laugh about this whole thing. I told her that we will always be apart of each other regardless of the outcome and that was comforting in a way. I said she still has a place in my heart. I don't like to hear her cry. Told her to be positive and let God's timing work all this out. We said we loved each other and said good night. What do you guys think?