RoseMel

Hello everyone,
This is my first post. I came to this site to talk to people that don't know my husband or myself. That way I can get unbias oppions.
My husband and I have been together for 11 years. I was in high school when we got together, and so in love. I think I held him up as this perfect man for a long time. About a year ago I discovered that he was chatting with woman online. Most did not live near us, but a couple did. When I finally asked him about it he lied to me, until I showed him proof.
We were seperated and living apart for 10 months, in which time he said he wanted to work things out, then thought it was best to get a divorce because he didn't want to continue to hurt me, then he wanted to work it out again.
Now that he is back home, I can really see that he is trying to make things work. But I can't seem to let my gaurd down, I keep waiting for the next shoe to drop. I want to forgive him (with out going into a lot of detail) for his actions. But I'm really struggling to believe the things he does and says.
I don't know how to move past this.
RoseMel