demora

I put this together...I haven't given it to him yet...but would appreciate some feedback on it.

"I want you to know that I love you very much. You are the love of my life and I see us together for a very long time. We just seem to be disconnected at the moment and I’m not sure what to do about it.

It seems that we have different priorities I guess and I’m hoping if I get mine out there, maybe it will help to bring us back together as a couple and a team.

I guess I always thought that when I got married, it meant that I wouldn’t have to do everything alone and face everything alone. I feel like I do. I deal with my own car issues, when there is a serious issue with my mom, I am at the hospital in the middle of the night by myself, I’m the only one to clean the house and most of the time the only one to wash the dishes and put them away. I feel like I’m working so hard to try to keep us afloat financially and I have to fight against the porn sites as well the monthly bills that we have.

I feel like that you have no pride in our relationship, our marriage, our home or our life. I feel like the single most important thing to you about our relationship is sex..and beyond that I feel like it’s your only focus. Sex is wonderful, it’s fun and feels good, but I don’t feel that it should be the only thing. You say you don’t ask me to compete with those women in the videos, but you ask me to be them…to be something I am not when we have sex. The last time, you made love to me and that was the first time in a very long time. Our sex life is about your fantasies, and when I tell you things I like, it feels like it doesn’t matter to you because it’s not in your fantasy.

You knew before we moved in that the gutter on the house needed to be fixed, and Steve fixed in the freezing weather. I asked you not too long after we moved in to take the cement to the garage and it’s still in the basement. We got the caulking tape to fix the shower and it’s been in the basement for almost a year. The pipe snake, I took it out to the garage the first time, and I asked you last year to take it back out to the garage. You took the pictures off the wall when they brought the dryer down, but you’ve never bothered to put them back up. I asked if you would get rid of the Infinity before winter set in and sent you several links to get it done, and it’s still in the driveway. To my knowledge, you have not followed up with the state of Colorado on the taxes they want you to pay for again, that we have already paid. It just doesn’t seem like anything is important to you except sex.

I appreciate that you are taking showers more often. When we got together you would shower and brush your teeth and shave every day. You always smelled so nice. I am very concerned about the health of your mouth. I hate dentists as well, but I go anyway. My teeth are sensitive that it’s agony to go, but I know I need to in order to keep my mouth healthy and I don’t even chew tobacco. We used to kiss all the time and I miss it, but with the odor from your mouth, it’s hard to want to be that close and most of the time, there is brown from Copenhagen on your lips. Not to mention that your teeth can make you very sick if they are not kept healthy. Hygiene is important to me and I try to keep myself clean and smelling good.

Stopping on the way home to get you chew and dinner may not seem like a huge thing and it’s really not. But I feel irritated because you drive past all the same places that I do when I’m on my way home from mom’s and I’m generally pretty tired and just want to be home with you and dogs. And I feel like I’m the only who cares about your health or you would make sure you ate.

I’m feeling hopeless and very alone. I know that visiting my mom is not the most exciting thing on the face of the earth to do, but it’s important to me and it’s important to her. I thought you would be there with me, not everyday but maybe once a week to show her and I both support and instead I get the sense the that you resent the time I spend with my mom. She’s the only mom I have and I don’t know how much longer I will have her. Her health is very fragile. "