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Unhappy in LA · 03-20-2008, 05:37 PM

Sorry I have not been back in so long.

Not to terribly long after I last posted I was taken to the hospital for what my boss and coworkers thought was a heart attack, but ended up being a massive panic attack. It was triggered by someone trying to discuss my issues with me. I had been talking to a counselor on my own (I had been going to him to help me with my alcohol issues as well). He helped me realize that the stress of trying to hold onto her was causing my panic attacks. I told her what happened and told her it would be better if we had some distance. She promptly moved out and since then I've only heard from her when she needed something from me.

I am trying to work through everything, but depression is a constant right now. I have realized since she left just how much I gave up (basically my whole self identity) just to keep her happy. I'm a very easy going person, and I tend to let everyone walk all over me, especially if I love the person.

I've turned down all the medications the doctors have been recommending, as I think its better to feel everything and work through it with a clear mind. Its very tough but hopefully with time I can feel better.

03-20-2008, 05:37 PM	#17 (permalink)
Unhappy in LA Registered User Join Date: Feb 2008 Posts: 13	Re: I asked for a divorce.. Now what? Sorry I have not been back in so long. Not to terribly long after I last posted I was taken to the hospital for what my boss and coworkers thought was a heart attack, but ended up being a massive panic attack. It was triggered by someone trying to discuss my issues with me. I had been talking to a counselor on my own (I had been going to him to help me with my alcohol issues as well). He helped me realize that the stress of trying to hold onto her was causing my panic attacks. I told her what happened and told her it would be better if we had some distance. She promptly moved out and since then I've only heard from her when she needed something from me. I am trying to work through everything, but depression is a constant right now. I have realized since she left just how much I gave up (basically my whole self identity) just to keep her happy. I'm a very easy going person, and I tend to let everyone walk all over me, especially if I love the person. I've turned down all the medications the doctors have been recommending, as I think its better to feel everything and work through it with a clear mind. Its very tough but hopefully with time I can feel better.