demora

I just had my thoughts all typed out and I hit the wrong button...and they are gone.

I do see what you are saying. The reason he looks at porn all the time is because he says I'm not in the mood enough, but it's hard to get in the mood when I know I have to pretend to be someone else to please him.

I guess I don't understand...I do say thank you for all the things he does - laundry, mowing the lawn, making the bed, doing the dishes, but I guess I wonder if I should have to recognize every little thing he does. We are in this life together and it takes certain things to make it livable. I give extra snuggles when he takes a shower.

I'm just tired. I feel like everything is on my shoulders. I take care of the cars, the bikes, the yard, the house, my mom's care and I need his help or I'm going to fail. I feel like a salmons swimming upstream and not getting anywhere. Maybe it's me that's all wrong...I don't know. He just went upstairs without saying a word to me. I don't know if he went to bed or what...I asked him where he was going and he didn't answer me. Is it so wrong for me to want to spend some time on my computer when it's not work related?

I know he loves and I love him...it's all this other stuff that seems to be weighing on us...on me I guess.