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well i handed the wife another letter today when she brought my kids for the night.

Jennifer,


Enclosed is a letter I handed your mother yesterday for her and you father to read. I don’t know if they told you about it or even let you read it. Baby you tell me you are done and that you want me to move on with my life. Out of all the things me and you have been through in our relationship we should work this out. I Love You. You told me that you still love me. Jennifer if you still love me then there is hope. The only person that knows about the letter that I gave them is me and them. Do not be scared to work on us because of them. Jennifer they will not be here the rest of your life and you need to think for yourself. I know it is scary to think about depending on yourself and me but you must start making yourself happy and quit worrying what they think. Jennifer they are your parents they will accept and decisions you make in your life no matter what just as my mother would if me and you work this out. That’s why I am doing what I am now. Because at first yes I thought we needed separated. I did not however think that we should get divorced. We just needed time apart so we could heal ourselves and realize what we have before it is gone. Jennifer people make things work over very much more than this. The only problem me and you have is communication. That’s all. We have to learn how to argue the right way also. There is nothing wrong with arguing. Just think about how much your parents argue about things. Almost daily from what I remember. The problem with me and you is we never make up. We never say we are sorry. I have swallowed all of my pride in the last two days by writing a letter to your parents. Doesn’t matter to me. I am doing what I think is the right thing to do. I want to make me happy from now on. If I don’t make the attempt to salvage us I will never live it down or forgive myself. I want to be with you Jennifer. No one else. I love you. I know might not have always showed you but I did the best I could. I do have my faults and I am learning to correct some of my ways. We made a mistake by trying to move up too fast. We were happy on forest creek drive. The kids we happy. We were a family. We still are a family. I know you mad and I know your confused right now. I am sure there is a lot of people telling you to go through with as is the same thing happening to me. Do what’s in your heart Jennifer. You love me I know you do. There is no way you cant, you spent 6 years of your life with me and brought a child into this world for me. You are doing the right thing by moving on in your carrier and I commend you for that. Please just stop doing and thinking for one minute and think. Think about how we came about, how we fell in love, how we make each other happy. Stop thinking about all the negative and think about the positive. It far out weighs the negative. Jennifer me and you can be happy. It will take a lot of work yes but it can happen and if I had any doubts I wouldn’t be trying to save us. Do not be scared about this. We can go behind everyone’s back about this. We don’t have to tell anyone that we are trying to fix us. No one. It can be our secret. All I want from you is to think. You can hate me if you want to but love if you can. I have never stopped loving you. When I tried to get you to go to dinner on that Saturday before the court hearing it was because of this. I wanted to tell you how I felt and that I thought we were doing the wrong thing. Jennifer if you were truly done with me you could look me in the eye. You could come and tell me to my face that we are done. I think you are just mad, upset and confused right now. That is perfectly acceptable. Listen to your heart and not what you hear. We fell in love for a reason. If we were not compatible we would have not have made it as long as we have. We screwed up and told everyone our problems and then they began to tell us what they wanted us to do instead of what we wanted to do. Jennifer right now I know our trust is shot. But believe me if you are scared no one will accept me and you working things out you are wrong. What doesn’t break us up will make us stronger. that’s what makes a marriage strong. To be able to get through the bad times. Our children love us together. There is nothing like pulling into a driveway knowing that you and them are there loving me always. Jennifer please don’t be scared. I love you. Trust me with you. I will not let you down. I want you to love and cherish me how you do your mother. Jennifer they will not be there forever but I can however promise to you that I will till the day I die. I said those vows on November 30, 2001. I will stick by them. Lets be the happy family we once were. I love you and just think. Do not be scared to knock on my door. You would be the best thing to ever come to my door. I can sit here and write all the letters in the world, and I will if that’s what it takes then fine. I haven’t gave up yet Jennifer. Please don’t give up on us, please don’t give up on our family. I love you. I asked for a hug last week and I never got it. Please can I just have a hug? I wanted to cut the grass for you. Jennifer no one has to know about anything we do and they wont unless you tell them. From now on what me and you talk about or do from this day out will be secretive to me. If you want to take this and show everyone then fine. But if you want to talk to me then do it. don’t be scared. No more phone calls. No more. If we are going to talk about us anymore I want it to be face to face. If you want to pull into my driveway tonight when the kids are here then do it. Do you know how happy they would be to see us happy again? Just think about a big group hug! If you want to show up here tonight after they are in the bed just text me and tell me. Jennifer me and you need to sit down and talk. that’s all I want to talk, face to face. I love you…………….





she called me and said that she didnt have any trust in me because of the recordings. she said she needs to do this for her. she said steve you know me, once my trust is gone i am done with you. she said i want you to move on. she said my parents are not the ones holding me back. this is my decision. i told her i understand the trust issue and that we could talk to someone about us. she said she didnt want to and that there is nothing we can do to repair it. so what do i do now? is there anyway to prove to her that i am still trustworthy?