Coping

First I want to say thank you to those who responded to my previous post. It was truly appreciated.

I need either an opinion or advice on the following. As you know I am trying to cope with his infidelity. I second guess certain things because of course I do not trust him. I have found out several things and when I question him, he lies and that does not help. When I show him the proof that he just lied to me, yet again, he shruggs and makes comments without giving me a straight answer.

Here is my question to you: Is it wise for me to continue looking for answers, looking into his past, so to speak. I have discovered that on our wedding anniversary he spend a good part of the day talking to her. He even spoke to her up until he was about to put the key into the front door to let himself into the house. (We were going out to have an anniversary dinner). When I confronted him I told him " you didn't even respect our anniversary date, you called me as I was leaving for work just to see if I had received your so called happy anniversary text. Then spent the rest of the day on the phone with her". Of course, he had nothing to say.

I had asked if they ever shared any photos, he flat out said no. So I confronted him with me finding that he had emailed to her two naked photos of himself. (Something that he had never, in all the years that we have been together, done to me). He said that he did not remember that. How is it that a person emails to someone naked photos and does not remember, yeah right.

Within our conversations about his betrayal I had asked if they would go out (as oppose to just being in her house). He stated that they never went out because he wasn't going to take the chance on someone seeing them together. I just discovered that he spent one of his famous days off (the one's that he used to spend with her while I was at work) out in the west coast from about 7:30 in the morning until about 8:30 that night.

It put me in a worse mood than what I was already in when I discovered this. Last night after he fell asleep I was watching television and they made a comment about affairs and all I could see was him on her and them going at it. Something just came over me and I burst into tears for nearly 30 minutes. Eventually it woke him up but I needed to be left alone. He knows that I am not having a good day today and we will be talking tonight. Should I let him know that I am aware of this outing or should I just let it go.