| | Re: errmmm help messed up
This story is disturbing on multiple fronts, but the bottom line is your children (the ones that you CAN love).
Be a father. Do the weekend thing if that's all you're allowed, and never talk down about their mother around them. I know you still love her, but she hurt you, and you'd be surprised what your kids actually pick up from your conversation or under the breath comments.
When Tracy sees you're making the kids a priority, and getting yourself together, she may want you back.
This doesn't sound like a relationship that can't be saved. But right now, she needs to deal with her vanity, jealousy and depression. Does she even recognize she has a problem?