I have been struggling in the last couple of weeks with a need to assert myself sexually with him. I haven't acted on it but I have been lusting after him??!!
Whats that all about?
Am I still hankering after a man who does not want me? I'm confused and angry at my own feelings....
I deeply resent the fact that I have to divorce him, although I accept that I do. I don't want things to carry on the way they are. I need change for my own sanity and self worth. So why would I allow myself to consider sleeping with him?
I know I would be disgusted with myself afterwards - that is probably what is stopping me. But I just dont understand the thought process.
I would apprciate your thoughts x