I met Reynold* six weeks ago. We talked. It was nice. Soon thereafter, he told me that he enjoyed our conversation and that he liked me a lot. We kept talking.
About a month later, we were watching tv when suddenly his eyes widened and his skin got very pale, like he'd had seen a ghost! He told me he had a vision of me and him, but kept it very vague. After 1 week of me asking about it, he finally told me that God had given him a vision of us getting married, and that it scared him.
Later on, I prayed. And I heard the same answer. God even shared the ministry we'd have together(the type of ministry itself still surprises me as it doesnt seem like something I'm gifted for or would want to do...but if it's God, it'll happen). God also said that we'd have two different ministries that would help and support each other.
Still, I'm EXTREMELY HESISTANT about Reynold:
1) He's described himself as a womanizer before, and told me that he likes to chase women.
2) He smokes. I dont.
3) He drinks...a LOT. Everyday to every other day, he drinks. And he likes to get drunk on weekends. I do worry that he may be a problem drinker because he doesnt go long without some type of drink. Im the opposite: I drink seldomly.
4) He has 3 kids by 3 different women, but he is supporting each like he should.
5)He's divorced. (This isnt to jar at anyone who's divorced; I just imagined the person I end up marrying being a noob like me, so to speak).
6) I'm not physically attracted to him. He's not ugly; he's just... not what I usually look at. I know the physical is NOT #1, but I do think it's important.
I've asked God to match me with someone who I am physically attracted to, in marriage. So I do find it odd, that if this IS from Him, that He'd do this. I've actually asked God WHY Reynold, and He said "He will help you complete your purpose."
If this is NOT from God, I'll happily accept it. But, for whatever reason, I feel it is, which is ODD. Please, someone offer me advice. I feel very topsy-turvy on this issue. God says He's not a God of confusion, but I feel very confused about this.
About a month later, we were watching tv when suddenly his eyes widened and his skin got very pale, like he'd had seen a ghost! He told me he had a vision of me and him, but kept it very vague. After 1 week of me asking about it, he finally told me that God had given him a vision of us getting married, and that it scared him.
Later on, I prayed. And I heard the same answer. God even shared the ministry we'd have together(the type of ministry itself still surprises me as it doesnt seem like something I'm gifted for or would want to do...but if it's God, it'll happen). God also said that we'd have two different ministries that would help and support each other.
Still, I'm EXTREMELY HESISTANT about Reynold:
1) He's described himself as a womanizer before, and told me that he likes to chase women.
2) He smokes. I dont.
3) He drinks...a LOT. Everyday to every other day, he drinks. And he likes to get drunk on weekends. I do worry that he may be a problem drinker because he doesnt go long without some type of drink. Im the opposite: I drink seldomly.
4) He has 3 kids by 3 different women, but he is supporting each like he should.
5)He's divorced. (This isnt to jar at anyone who's divorced; I just imagined the person I end up marrying being a noob like me, so to speak).
6) I'm not physically attracted to him. He's not ugly; he's just... not what I usually look at. I know the physical is NOT #1, but I do think it's important.
I've asked God to match me with someone who I am physically attracted to, in marriage. So I do find it odd, that if this IS from Him, that He'd do this. I've actually asked God WHY Reynold, and He said "He will help you complete your purpose."
If this is NOT from God, I'll happily accept it. But, for whatever reason, I feel it is, which is ODD. Please, someone offer me advice. I feel very topsy-turvy on this issue. God says He's not a God of confusion, but I feel very confused about this.