Originally Posted by Sparkles422
It's very difficult to let go. That's what I did last February when I discovered the EA. I began to let go. It was very very difficult but if someone doesn't want you, there is absolutely nothing you can do. My ex was in a fog (since then has come out of it, read other recon story). But I let him wander his path and I began mine. I had NC for 6 months after divorce and the house sold.
From his story, he was extremely miserable and grasping at fantasy as a crutch for fear of being alone and not having the self esteem to do it alone. I remained alone without dating, simply going through the pain. But I came out the other end with so much more than I went in.
My prayers are with you: for strength and purpose. Whatever you are to learn from this experience, I wish you success. I found myself in mine. And the miracle is we are both working on reconciliation almost one year to the day later.
Thank you. I feel so bad right now. Embarking on this, while being friends for our children, as well as holding out hope, as well as changing ME for ME.