I know this is just the beginning for me/us. I feel so low today. I have all these thoughts and feelings flooding my mind and to top it off...I tried to express them to him and he just doesn't take it well.
He said I am overwhelming him with all my thoughts/wants. He says he is TRYING his best and that this (making our marriage work again) was going to be a lot harder than he thought. This really upsets me...it makes me feel like he just wants to give up. I don't want him to give up...I want him to fight for this. I want him to want our marriage to work out just as bad as I do.
He says he doesn't want to lose me and that he loves me.
Tomorrow he goes to his first counseling session...I hope it helps. Meanwhile...today is a bad day. I feel horrible.
