Re: Selfish
We always have a blow-up where he does something selfish or hurtful. I will get angry, cry about it and even yell about it. He will then try to explain it away and then once he sees that he is getting nowhere, he goes into this non-chalant attitude. He acts very reserved and quite, trying to limit conversation as if he is walking on eggshells. No argument is ever resolved, only forgotten or left to be brought up again another day to have the same pattern happen. I forgot to mention that I am his third wife. It seems like the whole marriage is trivial to him now and he does not feel the need to hash things out. I really question daily his reason for marrying me. I dont know if he did it for love or b/c I was so supportive of him when he went through his last divorce. We were friends first before dating of course, but I think now that he felt as if though he owed it to me or something.
Does anyone have any clue what is going on or what I should do? I feel so trapped and I am always contemplating leaving him. I think that I need a fresh start with someone who has less baggage and emotional issues. We argue every other day, sometimes about big issues such as the one I mentioned in my first posting, and sometimes small. Either way, it is never resolved and I am always left feeling emotionally drained and alone.
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Kenya26
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