BrokenFrag

I got married because I couldn't imagine living the rest of my life without her. Unfortunately, I need to start imagining it because she wants to leave me.

Marriage is the ideal that has been pushed on us for generations. Need to have a family, a home, two cars, a cellphone. It is all part of the picture that we want to hang onto. Unfortunately, no one talks about the chemistry required, the unrelenting commitment. Americans rush into marriage because they feel like they need to be married, not because they want to marry a particular person. We are also taught never to take responsibility for our lot in life. It is our parents' fault, our society's fault, our spouses fault, etc. If things get tough, find a way out. That is our motto. Well that, or blow **** up.

We want families, but we don't have family values. We want relationships, but are not committed to them. It is so easy nowadays to meet new people through the internet, travel, etc. that there is almost no need to commit anymore. If that loving feeling dies down, find another one to replace it. Sure, that will complicate having a family or growing older, but whatever. Better to be a happy flake, than an unhappy person of quality, right?

Obviously, I am not having a good morning or a good life right now. But I finally realized that I also let my situation get to where it is. I am taking responsibility and I want no part of anyone who can't do the same.