BrokenFrag

Thanks Swedish. I all over the place when I try to decide when enough is enough because I still hope to be with her forever. I want that so badly for no good reason. She has done absolutely nothing to deserve my love and committment. At this point, the damage has been done. She has broken the relationship, and refuses to try to fix it. I will let her break it off when she feels ready to (or when I am settled on a new gameplan). I am going to use the time to get my life in order. There are assets that we have to prepare to split, a house to sell, etc. I am going to focus entirely on my body. I have been chubby since childhood and I am really psyched to try to see abs for the first time in my life. I think achieving that would do worlds for my confidence (and it couldn't hurt in the new relationship department if it comes to that).

The crappy part of the whole sex thing is that I have always had a very high success rate in physically pleasing my wife. We just lack the chemistry we once had. Sex (before we just stopped completely) did become mechanical after a while and I definitely know that we weren't connecting. I just didn't know how important it was to her because she never said anything. I'd love to be able to just shrug my shoulders and say oh well, but I am hurt and angry that the life I have been building for the last decade has basically evaporated in the last week.

Thank you for your continued support. I know I will make it, but it is going to be hard.