I don't know which way to turn or what to do. I have worked on my marriage for a good 2 years trying to make it work, but I keep hitting one brick wall after another.
My husband has BPD (not a clinical diagnosis, but 7 out of 9 criteria are checked). In the last 6 months I have been the focus of unreasonable rage, explosive temper tantrums, verbal abuse, unfounded accusations, insults, and witnessed the breakage of many household items-some set on fire, as he has to 'act out' immediately as soon as his rage takes hold.
His father physically abused him, his brother, (who is himself a mess) and their mother. He does not hit me-but he breaks stuff or punches walls.
If I were closer to my home, I would have been gone long ago, but I am 2,000 miles away.
I also have a thread called "addicted to Facebook" in the addiction board which spells out some of the other things I must contend with. I am so confused, lost and alone here I feel like sometimes ending it all just to escape but I am way stronger than that.
We are middle age-grown kids. This should be our time, but instead I find myself more alone than ever.
If anyone has any words of wisdom, I sorely need them now.