Coping

Will knowing how serious he was change anything.

Maybe, maybe not. but I like what Swedish said about "assume the worst and go from there". I didn't think of something like that.

Please understand, it is not an everyday feeling that I get about wanting to talk to her. Fortunately it only happens once in a while, not often but when it does it hits me hard.

I just keep telling myself that he does love me, (I see it in his eyes and I feel it in his touch). He is home with me and he is trying to make things right between us.

But of course, I have my off days, very off days where I relapse really bad. Someone will say something or I will see something that brings it all back. I don't watch television anymore and when I do I will watch either HGTV, Discovery, History or the Food Network or something along those lines. I don't listen to music anymore either because the lyrics will set me back.