shane33

Hello everyone my name is shane and i have a problem my wife of 15 years has left me and i know it is all my fault.I don't know how to fix it i love her with all of my heart and soul we have 4 beautiful daughters togather. You see the problem is that i broke her heart by not being there for her when she neede me i got way to comfortable in the relationship and forgot how to show her love and affection. She used to ask the simplist things of me like can i have a hug or will you go for a walk with me little things like that and i was to stupid to figure out what she wanted or to lazy i know this now but the problem is it went on for to long and now she says she is numb towards me and doesn't know how she feels anymore. I have screwed up so bad with her and am trying in the best ways that i know how to right all of my wrongs with her. Please understand that this women is the love of my life and the mother of my kids she just keeps on saying she needs time and space i believe that there is only a small window of opertunity left with her and i am haveing a very hard time giving her space and time i love her so much and i tell her all the time but she says they are just words to her and does'nt believe me it is just killing me i tell her i have changed and i am the right path in life now i spend every waking moment thinking about her and the only thing that i want from her is for her to hug me and say she loves me still but she says that she can't tell me what i want to here yet she does not know how she feels. What can i do? This women is my soulmate we are supposed to grow old togather spend the rest of our lives togather i miss her so much i look around our house and all i see are empty spots where she should be i wake up every morning and pray before i open my eyes that it is just a nighmare and she will be right there when i do open my eyes but i look and all i see is her side of the bed empy her stuff gone i get up and walk around and hope that she is here somewhere but to no avail my god it hurts so bad that i can't stand it. She and i are still talking and you know what we are laughing again smiling again having fun again it is like we are falling in love all over again but it kills me when i have to go back to my place without her. I savor every second we are togather now cause when i am not around her i miss her teribly what can i do? There has been many issues that she and i have been through togather and i think she might be having trouble letting go of the past and looking into the future i believe that love and marrige and relationships are a learning process we will all make mistakes in the journey and it is how we react to these mistakes is what will make us stronger and give the ability to over come hurdels in the road. Somebody please help me i am losing the love of my life i love her so much it hurts and when i can't see her i miss her terribly i am all tore up inside i can't eat or sleep when i do sleep i dream about her so when i wake up and she is gone it makes it worse someone please help me i even pray to the higher power for strenghth and gidance to get me back into the arms of my baby