Scott1984

So my wife came up to visit me in Washington state after not seeing her for two and half months. I was so excited to see her and my step kids. I had a plan for nice intimate time with her and to enjoy spending time with the kids as well. When I saw her at the airport, I was just so happy to lay my eyes upon her once again. My wife barely looked at me, and just hugged me and just gave me a peck on my check. I tried to get her attention and told her how much I missed and love her and she just barley even reacted. When we got back to the house, I just reasoned she was just tired with jet lag. So, we went to bed together, I tried to sleep but I was so badly wanting to be with her since it had been so long so I just enjoyed holding her and watching her sleep. The next moring when she woke up I was trying to be get close to her and she rolled as far away as she could on the edge of the bed. I asked what was wrong and I was just rubbing her back, she told me nothing but she wouldn't look at me. I asked if she wanted to fool around and she jumped out of bed as if I was a stranger. She got dressed as fast as she could telling me that she wont me intimate until she has her say and we have a talk. I just told her Id be happy to talk to her, just really wanted to be with her since it has been a really long time. Then we begin to argue, then she takes her stuff and leaves my room. I was just devestated, all I wanted was that reconnection, I knew we had alot to talk about but I was just completely hurt.

My wife left with the kids and her parents, I decided not to go I was very hurt and I just couldn't pretend I was happy in such way in how she was acting towards me. When she arrived back she started right in to arguing and accussing me and it just got really bad. I dont know how it started, but she shoved her hand in my chest and I grabbed her arms and escorted her out of the room. I was even more devestated that it escalated this far. The rest of the vacation was me just being so messed up. I told her I wanted to go home, and that I cant be up here anymore. My wife convinced me that It wouldnt be good for me to come back. She ddint sleep with me for the remainder of the time and yet she kept promising she would.

Being lost and confused with no place to go, I called my oldest friend that I know, he got me a plane ticket that day and I am now in Washington DC. My wife has flat out told me she is afraid of me and she doesnt want me back. I know I am partially to blame but all I wanted was to be initmate with my wife and all she wanted to was to argue with me. So, I have basically lost everything, my kids, my job, my reputation, and now my wife doesnt even want me. I have a feeling that she has someone else and that hurts even more. I am in such a mess right now...