| | Re: My Husband is home!
Quick update. Things are going good. We have just had 2 weeks off for the Easter break and it all went well. Spent done good quality time together with the kids and as a couple.
H is doing as he promised and bring open and responsive to all my questions and we have had some very heartfelt and honest conversations about our marriage and our expectations.
H went back to work yesterday. OW is back in work too. I felt ok. Obviously a little anxious but H has really stepped up to the mark. Was very supportive Sunday night and Monday morning ( without me asking) and gave me a lot of affection and reassurance. He's txting me throughout the day from work and rings me as soon as he gets home (I've already left for work by this time).
So at the moment he is doing everything he can and the signs are all good. However.....
I am feeling a it tearful today. Now that he's back in work just had some time to think about everything we have ern through in the last year and how hurt I've been. Wondering if it was all worth the agony! I'm hoping my marriage will be stronger and better in the coming years and I'm pretty confident but I'm finding it a bit difficult to let go of the hurt at the moment. I can't give myself to him 100%. I know that's natural after what I have been through but I am wondering if I will ever be able to do that again?! Im so afraid of being hurt again, and I've told my H this and he does understand. I want to give myself to him emotionally 100% but I'm wondering if I will ever be able to and this makes me sad. Im sad that I have to protect my heart from the one person who I entrusted it to.
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