mommy22

I've also had suicidal thoughts-- although not in serious consideration. Please go talk to someone. Let's make a pact, you go talk to a counselor and so will I. You need to just let it all out. You really need a support system. I do have a best friend that I have talked to about all this. Fortunately, she's not a judgmental person and loves me unconditionally. I'm very worried about your emotional state. It's consuming, I know. It's all you think about and you can't sleep at night. Death may seem easier, but think about your son. I think about how much my kids need me. I love them with every fiber of my being. She's probably using tough love with you right now-- although she needs to ditch the other guy. Since she mentioned counseling before would she still be willing to go? I know firsthand that she can't see the forest for the trees with him in the picture. Please don't keep all this in. Keep us all informed and remember how much that little boy needs his daddy!