In case you did not know this is my story: 3 week in house separation and wife on dating sites already?!?
Today my wife is out looking at rental accommodation with my son. So the day that my one and only moves out is getting closer by the minute. Although I have been upbeat and hitting the 180 hard - today I find myself in a bit of a hole. Not so much depression but a lot of bitterness and anger. All the 'how could she?' and 'I did so much for her' stuff that is not constructive at all but I cannot stop it going around in my head. I would still have her back in heartbeat but I have also been finding myself looking for things that have p**sed me off about her over the years and physical attributes that I no longer find appealing about her...is this normal? Is it all part of the process to make it easier on me? I am glad they are out at the moment as it would be hard to keep up the happy 180 demeanor at present.
I am also feeling fearful of the future - financially it will be a strain and I am also not the most social guy on earth. Meeting new people scares the sh*t out of me and even when I am ready to start looking for a relationship again I have been out of practice for 17 years and it terrifies me. I guess I should just focus on the here and now like my counsellor advised but it can be tough to do so now that I am spending a lot of time by myself.