| | Re: Well, here's one I never thought I would be asking.
Thanks Deejo, I think I might have mentioned this guy a long while ago. He waited for me, I waited for him, when the time was right and I was free and clear I made my feelings towards him known, he reciprocated, promised me the Real Thing, obviously that is what we got. I believe that Real Thing exists regardless of the circumstances, someone who knows him who I've been in touch with went to see him and passed on my love to him, and he said he couldn't have done it without me, apparently he choked up, if I heard her correctly. We will be okay, I will be okay. Our motto that we decided on, because we were overwhelmed with what to do and where to go from the point where we were at, just the night before his hemorrhage, when we sat and had a long talk about US, is 'It will be all right.' I truly believe that. I have had enormous support from people who know either or both of us. It's not easy being separated from him but I am putting my time to best use, however not over-scheduling...just doing things that I know worked when I was dealing with getting my feet under me during my abusive marriage, squaring that away. I am BEING the person he fell in love with, which is the REAL me, and it's the real me that shines through when I'm with him. No pretenses, no layers, just me. He brings that out in me, that's how safe I feel when I'm with him, he is truly a special person, a miracle worker. By treating me the way he wanted to treat me, in 2 weeks he erased 100% of the hurt from my life. When he recovers or even before...he will remove what's left of the hurt his sister and family inflicted on me, of course I will have made a head start on that, but I trust he will find a way to finish it up. Whenever I see him I feel even more calm, of course I feel calm now...but seeing him aside from the interference of his family, which the case worker arranged for, is a very good way of coping, even though it is limited. We went several months without seeing each other and he still had the same feelings for me, even more respect for how i managed my life, this will be the same, I am sure of it. It's not like if we can't see each other day to day, that history or love is going to be erased. His sister doesn't have the power to do that, she can only control the physical realm, and only for so long.