stav

I think there may be some delayed post natal depression there as well. You gained a lot of weight, felt unattractive and miserable, which perhaps built up inhibitions regarding your body, and the thought of your husband seeing you or touching you intimately.

This coupled with the feeling of pressure to perform may have made it even worse till you are at the stage you are now.

Perhaps you could get your doctor to recommend a therapy group of counsellor, where you can talk about your feelings.

Tell your husband how much you love him, and that you want to go back to the loving relationship you had previously, and that you will need his help and understanding to make it work. I bet he will want to help. Perhaps he could even come to the therapy/counselling sessions with you?