Re: Repulsed
I agree with several of the posters before me. I think you are still having post partum depression, if it hasn't gone into clinical depression at this late date. It has been my and many other new mom's experience that you may feel repulsed by sex or what leads up to sex after having a baby. I think this is our body's way of telling us we don't want to get pregnant just yet. I'd be interested to know if you breast- or bottle feed /fed your baby. I also think it's important to talk to your doctor about it now.
The bit about June Cleaver, though. You didn't mean it mother-wise, I think, but wife-wise. Mrs Cleaver is iconic as the perfect mom and mother. She is symbolic to you, and if you put some serious thought into it, you could figure out exactly what it is.
I want to put in a word for your hubby. Pregnancy and parenthood put men through changes as well. A lot of men crave reassuring that you still find them still attractive as a husband as well as a daddy. I'd stop pushing him away and try some honest and deep talk with him. You know, turn off the TV, turn to each other and try to work this all out. If that doesn't work, try counseling. Try to stop feeling "repulsed" and remember when you loved him enough to marry him and make him the husband and the father of your child. Have a little sympathy for him, OK? Can you imagine how you are making HIM feel?
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