I don't know. I thought I was doing well... I guess not. I am wondering if I am too damaged that no one will want me.
I will have trust issues for sure for a while. My stbxh is moving on... why can't I??
I would never R w/ stbxh. I know better than to say never... but I have lost all respect and trust in him and there's not a single thing he could do to ever earn them back. If I took him back I would lose the respect of my older kids, family, and friends. He has done too much to forgive now.
After talking to my mom and my friends I think when I can stop being angry with him. When I can stop having those days of "hate" in my heart for him and what he has done. I won't ever respect/like him again, but I think when my anger subsides and the hate is rare I will be ready to move one.
I also realized I was looking for my kids 'step-dad' rather than a man who would be good for me... changing that perspective too. If mama is happy everyone will be