Originally Posted by Girlygirl1234
I have never used one of these before, so please bear with me. I am just looking for a little advice from people who know nothing about me.
I have been married to my husband for 2 1/2 years. I am only 21, and I married way to young. When we met, we had spent a week together, and fell in love. My husband was in the Marine Corps, and got sent overseas not long after. While he was overseas, we ended up getting married, and then spend the rest of the year apart.
Anyways, to get down to the point, my husband and I are both Christians. He was raised a Christian though, and I was not, so sometimes I struggle with it. My husband has an AWFUL temper, he gets very angry at little things. There have been plenty of times that we have gotten into an argument because my husband says I am not being "submissive" or I am not "obeying" him like the Bible commands me to do. He will yell at me, and sometimes I end up yelling back, which turns into him calling me a bitc*, *****, ****, a waste of human life, a piece of trash, him telling me he hates me, he wished he never met me, and so on. There have also been a few times where he has said things like that, and I may tell him to shut up, or leave me alone, and than he usually will choke me or something. Sometimes when I am crying really loud, or he wants me to shut up, he puts it hand over my mouth and nose so I can barely breath, and yells at me till I stop crying.
Anyways, I have tried to talk to him about it, but every time I do, he says I should not have provoked him, and that it is not abuse because he does not come home and beat me, he doesnt punch me, he doesnt get mad at me for not having dinner ready and than punch me in the face. He tells me that he is just taking control because he is "the head of the household" and he deserves "respect".
I am just a little lost on what to do. I love my husband with all my heart, but I do not like him at all right now. I want to leave him, but he doesn't want a divorce because the Bible only allows divorce for adultery being committed, otherwise, you are committing adultery with anybody else you are with afterwards. I also am afraid to hurt him. I know he loves me, and I know how much it would tear him apart to lose me. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to spend the rest of my life miserable or wishing I had done something different, but I don't want to hurt him either!