Originally Posted by proudwidaddy
God today is so weird for me, we only set the final date today....I hope by next month when I get divorced on the 19th I will be able to handle it better. I know I look at her and realize she is not the same woman. Her voice, where it once made me weak in the knees, now makes me want to vomit! Being around her just gives me a panic attack. The house I used to share with her, where it was once my dream home, now it's been tainted. The only two rooms in the house that are pure are my children's rooms. She has more than likely had sex with at least one man since our split, everything about her screams selfish, out for herself, willing to break up the family.
So why do I still feel like this? She looks sickly skinny now. Her parents can't believe how much weight I've lost with all this, her dad keeps telling me he is sorry that I had to lose the weight the way I did.
I sometimes feel like I've been abandoned by god (or whatever higher power you subscribe to). I wonder if she is the best chance I'm going to have at love, and now I will just be a broke, broken down, single father of two?
There has to be better in store for life right? It's ironic, my best friend that I'm going to be living with in July, his divorce is final in June too. If it wasn't for all the wonderful women here on TAM I would start to wonder if there are good women out there?
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There are good women out there. You may not readily see it, but they are there and you may very well have to take our word for it. But do me one very large favor: In the coming months, when you might see me intoning the same as you have about "a lack of good, loving women" out there, please take the liberty of kicking me in the backside and reminding me of the very same thing. Like you, I occasionally need encouragement also!