Re: Feeling hollow inside
I havent as such put a deadline on this. Im just worried that this will drag on for years, how do you know its over?.
My gut feeling is its not, I just dont know if I can ever get over my W having been with someone else and playing me for a fool really. I have lost my self-respect in a way , I should have kicked her out as soon as I found out, but that wasnt what I wanted so I paid for that by losing my self-respect, which I really want back.
I find it really hard to be around people who "know" about it all, the OM's wife pretty much spread it around our circle of friends, so everyone took sides , pretty much with them as we hadnt lived in this area them for as long, I still have my friends but havent spoken to them as I feel so ashamed, and the only reason I think that is is because I think they will wonder why I stayed with her.
I really hope to look back on this in a years time and feel a whole lot different.
Just posting this yesterday made me feel a whole lot better which shows I do need to find someone to confide in.
Thanks for replying.
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