M~Angel

I don't know where to begin. I have moved out of my house, I left my highly functioning alcoholic husband because I could't stand by and watch anymore. We have a 14 and 9 year old. I really thought when I left 3 months ago he would realize he loved and wanted his family and would get help. Boy, was I ever wrong. He has now come to the decision that he no longer loves me. This has destroyed me. I was sure my leaving would be his rock bottom sort of speak and he would get the help he needs. I really was not prepared for this, I thought he loved me and I blamed all of our issues on his drinking not the fact that he didn't love me. I have been blind sided. Any advice on what I do now? Even as I ask that I know the answer it is just so sad and I don't know how our lives got here. I was the alcohol cop in our house as he tried to quit and he hates me for it I just can't believe the stuff he put me through and he doesn't love me? Must be nice to live a life numbed by alcohol he has no clue how awful the last few years have been how awful he has been and I still love him so much. How can it be that he just doesn't love me!