I don't know where to begin...I've been married for 4 years in June. I have one son who is 5 months old.
I don't know if my marriage is over or not. I know marriage isn't easy, I know there will be arguments and disagreements but it feels like they never end.
I found out when I was 8 months pregnant that my husband of 3 years was addicted to porn. Here I am, HUGE and I found stuff on his computer. After talking to him I found out his addiction has been around since before we were married! So now I'm wondering who I'm married to. It has really affected me. I know I'm not attractive anymore my body has gone through so much having a 9 pound baby c-section.
I have this beautiful baby and I want the best for him. I know my husband is trying to change but he can be the biggest, most selfish jerk ever!
We argue about everything now. We'll try and compromise on what we're arguing about but in the end he won't stick to his end of the bargain. I'm really unhappy most of the time and find myself at my parents house rather then here. When I am here and we are on good terms and talking one little thing will set him off. Then all the meanness comes out: "why do you always have to nag me! do you ever stop talking?? seriously, i don't want to talk to you" I do not deserve that treatment. I don't trust a lot of the things he says anymore. It's hard to believe anything he tells me. Is there anyway to get that trust back?
I don't even know if I'm in the right place for all this. I really don't know what to do...
