texasmom

My husband and I just celebrated our 10 year anniversary. We have 2 children and have a pretty happy life from the outside. We have had lots of problems with our marriage. We are great together when it comes to the day to day "business" of our family. Our relationship is another problem. My husband does not know how to show affection to me in a way that I need. We have had sex once in the last 8 months...and not because I do not want to. We have been to counseling and things were better for a while, but now, they are back to bad. We are great roommates. He is an excellent provider and I know he loves me. I am desperate for affection. I have dreams about being with other men and feeling intimate with others. I often wonder if my husband is secretly gay.....he is pretty feminine and does not appear to need sex like most men.
The sex problems have been since we met. I was his first, but he was not mine. He has never wanted a lot of sex, and I remember when we were first married, I cried because I thought he felt I was not attractive to him because he would turn me down when I initiated.
I am totally checking out of our marriage right now. I hate the example we are setting for our boys..........I have no idea what to do to fix things.

Sorry this is so long, I could go on forever.

Thanks