| | Re: I have a confession.
I would get the book Not Just Friends by Shirley Glass.
Your ex is a fantasy escape from the problems of your life. Sexting makes you feel beautiful and sexy. But the emotional support and the feelings of being sexy are things you know you should be receiving from your husband.
You are demonstrating how much of a compulsion an EA can be. You cannot stop by yourself. Even your counseling isn't doing that for you.
The only way to stop is fully confess to your husband. He is going to be furious. But you have been hiding your true self from him for a very long time. That is not a marriage.
Do you want to stay married? Or, are you secretly hoping to get back with your ex, and maybe if your husband discovers the truth, you will have passively-agressively achieved the divorce you're too weak to ask for?