NiceGuy_Sam1971

Thankyou for all you're advice. Just to shed more light on the whole story, for the last 3 weeks I have been in a state of "I want you, I dont want you, I want you, I dont want you". Every time I have told her I dont wish to be with her or have given her reason to think its over contact with the other guy has occurred. I have asked her why she is still in contact with this person if like she claims she is so "ashamed" of what she did. Her response is because she thought it was over between us and we were seperated. Jess has said she loves me and wants to work things out and realises Richard was just using her. Just to give you some insight on what happend and why I'm still here after my suicide attempt, I was talking to Jess via internet before I made the stupid decision to attempt it. Jess had been the one who suspected something and rushed to the house to find me lying on the sofa unconscious(I had taken an overdose). She said she was hysterical and through my attempt at killing myself has come to realise how much she doesnt want to loose me. Ultimately she has told me she loves me, wishes for us to goto coucelling and wants to try again. Sadly I have seen no proof she loves me, she has not left her job: she says because we wouldnt survive financially, and apparently this Richard is transfering to another store and she says shes going to see if and when hes doing this, which she hasnt...