This is a re-post from the wrong section of the forum (ladies corner, or something like that.) Sorry for the newbie mess-ups.
OK, now that I've realized (for the final time) that he will never change, he is an emotional abuser/neglecter (of me, not really the kids), I've asked him to move out. But he is still the father of my children and although I don't ever want to see him again, I have to.
Since then, he has been trying to smile (actually making eye contact) and be charming (OMG he is charming when he wants to be, sigh...), but I can't smile back. He has never been a friend to me. In fact, he has been the enemy that i tried to "forgive" and be patient with, even though, because of him, I lost my own family and a dear friend through his influence on them. He has been avoiding and resentful for most of our marriage. And except for my children, I am alone now.
How can I smile back? How should I treat this man who has proven himself an enemy to my happiness? He has been good to the kids, but because of their young age, they don't need much but wrestling and tickling. When they do, will they be hurt too? I still love him like a fool, but can't accept how he treats me anymore. So, how should I treat him? How should I feel? How can I protect my babies? How can I protect myself without putting the kids in the middle?
I want to scream at him that he has put me through h***. What is the protocol when its still so raw?